We do not like the same movies or music. Natalie is a cheerleader and I am a tennis player. We do not go to the same school, so we don't see the same people. I do not enjoy going shopping with her, because she has plenty while I am mostly broke. I hate her racist comments, excuse me but I have friends that are black, Puerto Rican, Chinese, and yes I am friends with the Indian convenience store owner's daughter and one of my best guy friends just came out. Do not say anything to me that would offend them, because I also will be offended.
I really like her anyway. I hope things can go back, but I don't think they will. My relationship with Hannah is similar. I tried to hold onto our friendship much too long. She hurt me one too many times. So I let go and moved on. Now she says she really values my friendship, but I need her to prove that I can trust her. She got William Young to go to prom with me, and I am forever thankful for that, but after tearing a hole in cloth it takes more than one stitch to piece it back together and it can never be like new.
For some reason Nicole seems more distant too. I think it has more to do with herself than me though. I draw a blank when it comes to what it is, but such is life. My dear friend Iris is moving to Mississippi, even though she is so much younger than me she is great to talk to and a wonderful advice giver. It is too bad that she is moving after I have only been friends with her for about 6-7 months. I will miss her.
Abigail just got back Friday from Cheerleading camp. She is co-captain. She says she is going to make me popular when she gets to high school, but I do not want to be that. A country song I heard today said, " It's better to be hated for who you are, than to be loved for who you are not." For now on I'm going to strive to be fully myself. Take it or leave it, love me or hate me. I want to find someone who understands that and me.
Well, William said "don't ever change." Well if I was smooth with words I would've said the same thing back, but I was mostly just soaking it all in. I want to talk to him, but I always think I'll call him tomorrow. I can't believe I told him about going bankrupt. I never even told some of my best girl friends that. For some reason I just feel like I can trust him.
The mission trip to Martin, KY went well. It was great to meet Nick Ramsey and hang out with Nathan. I really felt that I became much closer to several girls who go to our youth. We prayed together before bed every night, it was moving. We started our own Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants. We, like the girls in the movie are all very different, but we have come with a common goal of growing closer to each other and God. The kids from Indiana were awesome, they showed us how cool other Christians can be. It makes me proud to be called Goody-Too-Shoes. Too bad school isn't like a mission trip, where everyone is positive, hardworking and comes together for a common cause.
By the way thank God for butterflies and lighting bugs, water, flowers and rain drops. Summer showers are a life saver. Just when it becomes so hot that I could shrivel up like the plants and I'm sticky with sweat I see those dark clouds. They are so beautiful. Then the drops come one by one refreshing everything like a cool glass of water.
Teenage angst at it's finest! Let's see, I quoted poems I had to read in English class anyway. I stated that I didn't care (obviously in denial) and I called a girl a racist, which is untrue. I will say though, I am a big believer in public schooling as I feel that social interaction with people of different backgrounds is a very important part of a person's education. My friend unfortunately did not have a opportunity to interact with such a diverse student body as she came from a relatively wealthy family and attended an exclusive school. I believe that who you interact with does influence how you see the world.
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